i’ve neglected friends way too long that i keep forgetting that building a relationship is easy, doesn’t matter whether its friendship or even love, but what is sure that losing a friends is harder than building it. It’s not easy lose a friend, but i’ve lost so many, and i know that makes me a bad friend.
I was close to a numerous individuals, but i guess when u get caught up with work and life, u forget that there was once a friend that was there when u needed her/him, and there was a friend that stood by you no matter how tough things was going to get. I lost a few.. i didn’t keep in touch and in return, when i walked past her in the mall, she snubbed me.. or when they got pregnant and have babies, i was the last to know, and it wasn’t even from her, but through others, the ones that got married didn’t bother invite me… it hurt, but i have to live with it, its how i shaped my life and as numb as people think i am, i’m not… it hurts…
A friend called today and he told he was admitted in the hospital for 2 weeks, and i didn’t even visit him, i didn’t know cuz i didn’t bother calling him. It’s my fault, and as i heard him say, "saya sedih awk tak datang," i felt so hurt cuz all this while, i thought no one cared enough to include me in their life, when actually it’s been me that didn’t bother to ask how they are with theirs… He had a bad asthma attack and was in ICU for 2 weeks, TWO WEEKS.. and i didn’t even come to see how he is…
"People come and go, only you stayed, no not you, i meant me…" this statement… people come and go, but i was wrong, i didn’t just stay, i didn’t bother about why they left in the first place, i didn’t care enough… i just didn’t care…
